Sometimes the most beautiful moments in our lives are spontaneous reactions to circumstances or emotions that are tied to a specific place or event. Without this place or event, we may still experience a superficial moment but it would not transcend itself into a world that our soul visits to find simple beauty and inspiration when we can’t find it otherwise.
Standing in front of Audrey at the altar located in the Gospel for Brazil church, surrounded by our American and Brazilian brothers and sisters in Christ, we found ourselves in that place. It was July 15th, and we were celebrating our 13th Wedding Anniversary by renewing our vows in a little church that we helped start in the middle of the Brazilian desert.
We didn’t come to Brazil with any such plans. Actually, we had always thought we would renew our vows in some quaint, picturesque village in Dolomites, Italy. Why? Simply because we had seen a beautiful picture years ago that depicted a little church off in the distance surrounded by awe-inspiring mountains overlooking a valley. I was drawn to the picture and thought it would be the “perfect” setting to renew my love for Christy someday even though we had no connection to this place. It was just a picture. It did not tell the story of us though, and it did not define any part of us or our love.
However, this little village and this little, God-inspired church in the desert region of Brazil does. Who we are today as individuals and as a couple is rooted in the mercy, the grace, the forgiveness, the love and the hope that God has rained down onto a spiritually oppressed village in Brazil in the middle of nowhere, and onto two spiritually immature babies that did not know the ways of God.
Before we rededicated our lives to Christ over four years ago, we defined ourselves by the things of this world. We didn’t point anyone to Christ, and any difference we had made in anyone’s life seemed to be superficial. We have always had a tremendously close relationship, and the love we have for each other has never been an issue for us but we were spiritually bankrupt. We weren’t in church, we weren’t reading the Bible, we weren’t praying, we weren’t seeking God, and we definitely weren’t placing anything into God’s hands but rocks made of this world.
But God didn’t turn his back on us, instead he brought Joe and Arimar Carr into our lives, and the “little” mission organization called Gospel for Brazil. He sent us 5,000 miles away to a place where our faith could not be manipulated or controlled. The culture, the people, the language and the food were all novel to us. We were completely reliant on God’s Holy Spirit to guide us. We had nothing to offer but it was in this vulnerability that God began to cleanse us and reshape our souls so that we could begin to become the Godly couple that He could use to build His Kingdom. He began to turn our eyes away from the things of this world so we could begin to see the world through the eyes of His Son, Jesus Christ. He began to show us that it isn’t the legacy that we leave on this world but it’s the Legacy that we allow Christ to leave on this world through us. He began to show us that a life lived that does not point others to Christ is a wasted life.
Most importantly though, He began to build a passion in us for the lost souls of this earth that would become a consuming fire in our spirit, fully dependent on and fully flamed by the Holy Spirit of Christ Jesus. God is far from finished with us, and we don’t know where God will take us in our faith but we do know where it all began; in that little village in the desert of Brazil called Ubauna.
So maybe we didn’t make it to Dolomites, Italy to that little church but we did find our way to a little church in Ubauna, Brazil that has touched us, and our faith deeply. It wasn’t perfect…it was late at night, we were exhausted from sleep deprivation, we didn’t have rings other than the one that Arimar gave Christy that read “Love” and the one John allowed me to borrow from him, we didn’t have our parents or our birth family there, we didn’t have on a nice tux or a beautiful wedding dress, we were chomping on gum throughout the entire ceremony while wearing O Evangelho O Para Brasil shirts that would cause the donkeys to look at us with suspicion but we were exactly where God had lead us. We were surrounded by our brothers and sisters in Christ, and by people that mean so much to us and our faith. We were in the church that God had allowed us to play a small part in founding, and in our eyes, that made it a picture-perfect celebration of the love that we share for each other and for our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.